here are some things i hate so much about my life.
i have the worst fucking voice in the world. i sound retarded on the phone and some pple look at me strange. fucking bastards.
ive always been an outcast. i have those days where i can be social, but not with more than 1 or 2 pple.
my crush knows i like him but doesnt want a girlfriend. im 15 and ive never had a boyfriend, never kissed, or flirted with anyone. im also not allowed to go on dates and neither is he, and hes almost a perfect christian, is always respectful to everyone, is ridicuously cute, and has a great body. the only flaw i see in him is that hes a hunter.
ive never had a real life. i dont go out on most weekends and i havent done much of anything compared to my friends who are busy as hell, and dont have time to hang out. ive been invited to go to the movies but my mom wouldnt drive me.
my moms life sucks. she has fibermyalgia, arthritis, and hypoglycemia. i cant drive, so she wont drive me ANYWHERE unless its conveniently in town. we live miles away from town. arrrrrrrggggghhhh i miss the city!
i get so tired easily. its so fucking annoying it makes me want to die. sometimes i think i have hypoglymemia.
i have ADD, so i have never been able to focas in math. i think thats the only class i utterly suck in, with a capitol S. i havent passed a math TAKS test since 5th grade, and im about to be a sophmore in high school!
i get joint pain, which i read is common in teenagers. i dont give a shit if its common in teenagers, its HURTS!
im too shy to worship in church like everyone else even though i want to, but i just cant. i was forced into religion when i was younger, so i dont think i could ever be active in church. when im an adult, im not going to church.
i had to move to this shitty town called livingston. its a country town. fucking hillbilly trash shit living here. i cant stand country music except for dixie chicks. theres nothing good on the radio. maybe some La Roux sometimes, but pretty rarely as far as i know. no hip hop.
about moving here, i was going to go to a brand fucking new school last year with most of my past friends. i miss them so much. the new school has a coffee stand, natural light for the classrooms, and cool rocking chairs for the students
my parents divorced summer of 2009. i was only 13 and my mom announced this on the very first day of summer, so i was going to go my first whole summer without both my parents together.
we had to deal with cps for over a year because i told my counselor that my dad hit me. i never forgave myself and never will, because if you have had them in your life, you know how goddam annoying they are and that they can ruin your life for no good reason. thankfully they fucked off before they could do it. its amazing how one bitch can almost ruin your family, or actually do it.
i miss the pple i used to see so fucking bad. my friends from my home town, my cousins in el paso, even though i only saw them for a week, my friend in washington dc. i live in texas, which is not why my life sucks. i love texas.
im sure there are more but im gonna stop here cause im running out of things to think of. i know there are lots of pple that have it worse, i just feel like listing things.
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