At face value my life doesn't appear to be all bad. I have had the basic essentials provided to me by my parents whom have been somewhat decent to me. The real problem is my twin brother who is just all around better than I am. He is smart, attractive, and popular(on the varsity football team). While I, on the other hand, have never accomplished anything noteworthy ever. I am dumb, mediocre looking, and, on top of that, I have social anxiety(resulting in absolutley no social life).
Do you know what it is like to be a total failure while your brother is mister perfect? He goes out to those Friday night parties gets drunk and hooks up with the pretty girls at school, while I stay home every weekend and sit in my room by myself. Or how about those family reunions with all my uncles and cousins who open the door and go straight to Chris(sometimes walking straight past me without even saying hi). Chris tells all of his crazy/funny stories to the relatives as I sit in the back round and stare off into space, totally unnoticed.
I try so hard to be like Chris but it never works...it sucks having everything you have ever wanted manifested as your twin brother. All I want is something to be proud of...something to tell people, something that will make somebody notice me. Why does it have to be like this? Why can't I be just like chris...? Life is so cruel. | |
At least you can take courage in the fact that you're not alone...
It helps a lot to have things on your own. A found something that I really liked doing, was good at doing and he was at the moment not in to. I had a talk with him and asked him ifnhe couldnplease agree with me to stay out of that field. It was a 2 minutes conversation, 15 years ago, and it worked. None of us 2 knows if he would like THAT thing, or ifnhe would be good at it. He has never tried it, and often bringsmup thensubject in family or friends reunions on how good I am at it. Since then I enjoy with the rest to hear at the funny stories my brother has to tell, knowing that he is not better at everything. And most important to me, knowing that he loves me very much and i am important to him, if not for many others.
good luck.
i know exactly what you feel tommy. i am a twin too and though you may feel like you can't you need to stop comparing yourself to your twin. you're different people and you don't go comparing yourself and getting all depressed with random people like brad pitt do you? no. because you are different.
stop comparing yourself!
also i'm sure your looks are the same. you are twins so don't worry about that.
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