My life is terrible. I am 5'8 and 350 pounds. I cant lose weight to save my life. I am bow legged and pigeon toed.I have never been to a party. I dont have any money. I cant find a job. I'm 20 and have never had sex, kissed a girl, hugged a girl, or even had a social conversation with a girl. I have had 3 different cell phones and have never received or sent a text message because I have no friends. I'm flunking online community college classes. I sit at home all day. The only time I leave the house is to go to church or when my mom goes to wal mart. I dont actually go inside wal mart but I sit in the car just so I can see people walking in and out of the store from my car. Its the only time I get to see people. I was embarrassed at my high school graduation practice when a kid told me to use a treadmill in front of the entire senior class. Everyone laughed including the principal. I dont have any good clothes. Just tattered jeans and a polo shirt that is about two sizes too small. And the icing on the cake, my father passed away last year. But hey, at least I have food and shelter. Who needs friends? |
I've just read the last comment to your post - people can be cruel sometimes.
This is the first time that I've reacted to one of these things. Know, then, that you have spoken to me, someone stuck in a foreign country who is old enough to entertain herself but still feels crippled by loneliness.
What I've realised is this: it's not about weight, it never is. And you'll probably never read this, although I hope you do.
I have always struggled with my weight - sometimes too much, sometimes too little. But what I've realised(another realisation) is that loneliness has nothing to do with weight ... it has to do with the feeling of not belonging. Somehow, people like you and me, we feel like we don't fit in this world,even if we are too small or too big. It has nothing to do with how we look, but how we feel.
So I won't give you practical advice about how to lose weight, because that, for me, is secondary, What I would like to say to you is this: find that part of yourself that believes in the good fight. The battle you start every morning - the one that makes you get out of bed (and how difficult is that to do sometimes?),take a breath,brush your teeth and face the world (as imperfectly as you feel you do that at the moment). This is the good fight, because it takes guts to do, feeling as you do.
This is not an instaneous cure, nor instantaneous relief. But I hope that it will make you see that you are a warrior (we all are) and that this energy, this realisation, will help you to plan your next battle ... whatever that may be.
I always had a problem with weight. Im 200 something pounds, 5ft. 5, 32 years old woman. Losing weight is a lifelong thing for me. My weight fluctuated up and down. Over the years i noticed one thing. I always have to do something to lose weight. I always have to do something about my food craving.About the times i just let my self go ,eat and then pity myself.I realized that i either do something or i will just keep getting fatter.Now im not on e diet i just watch what i eat. I do put effort in to loosing weight. I mesure calories, i bought kitchen scale and i write everything down. It helps me. I suggest you try sometning otherwise no change will come. I wish you the best. Please dont give up. Andrea
-Sincerly
-Kat.
(Yeah Im a chick)
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