LIFE SUCKS

My life is nightmare and it sucks a lot

i had great childhood, never had any problems, i was happy,
my life plans were super, maybe a little to hard to make all true, but i was on the good way until last year.
i got anxiety from one drug, but got better, then after 3 months i used one more time one drug, and it destroyed me. on the outside noone knowsh how i struggle every day. fight for my life. and my big ambitions plans are gone,
so im here now, with no plans for future,all becouse i have this heart problems, noone belives, they say its anxiety, but i think i know better.


if my life will continiue this way, i dont think i will make it over this summer, becouse i hate this condition and just wonna blow me away into afterlife.

i get depressed like never before.
im not a junky, after that problem i stoped drinking , stoped mostly everythink,
stoped living, and this is now 10 months every day the same,
fuck i hate me