LIFE SUCKS

Will I ever be happy?

1 year divorce from my wife, and sometimes I wonder whether this is the right choice. Still care and worried about her, hoping that she is more happy than when she is with me. Those beside me say she is not the right person for me, for she has not been a good wife to be. And it still break my heart when I thought about her betrayal, but isn't I doing the same when we are together. A crow calling another black just that she isn't aware or don't bother.
A 10 years relathionship is so hard to put down, when that someone else is already in your heart a part of the family. Even though I have felt indifferent to her as a wife long ago, the arching pain of losing someone that has stay with you for 10 years make it unbearable for the heart.
And now with this ever long lasting lonliness, with no friends to confide in, the feeling of sadness is slowly dominating my mind. I will never walk into another relationship, until I can unlease myself of this hopelessness and loneliness. And I feel so sad for her, a girl that too came with loneliness and searching for her own happiness. I can only hope that we can find our soulmate again, and discover the missing love that strip of our innocence. Will I ever be happy? I can only hope.......