LIFE SUCKS

no one knows the truth

I am about to be 25 and I am sad and stressed all the time I am about to graduate college and my life is falling apart it gets worse every day. I spend the majority of my day crying because of how my boyfriend treats me. He calls me stupid and gets mad when I try to have fun with him. He screams at me when I stump my toe or drop something. He says I'm to fat and he refuses to have sex with me cuz I'm disgusting. I gained 40 pounds last year when I broke my ankle and have lost 30 but he says that's not good enough. I feel awful all the time and no one knows . I have lots of friends and he refuses to be apart of anything we do and that upsets me. I know that it should be as simple as breaking up but there is so much more to it and I cant. I have to support most everything we do and I'm exhausted daily.I hate my job cuz i work with people who suck ass and have a boss that doesn't care.

My family is my everything but my father got me sued over medical Bills he was suppose to pay years ago. That sucks cuz he said he would always take care of me and he lied. I wonder if this shit is a test of who I am but Damn give me a break. I want to runaway and not worry about bills but I can't I'm a fucking coward and i hate myself for it. It's not fair when these people have these wonderful lives and most of us are stuck in the shitter. I hate it !