LIFE SUCKS

shit life

I feel shit all the time. My life involves being stuck in the house all the time with no money in a really shitty area with shitty people. I'm trapped there is no chance of escape. No one cares how I feel. Told the Doctor how I felt. He didn't say anything. No offer of counselling, no offer of medication. Just a simple "go to bed earlier". As if that's going to help my shit life! I've had this problem all my life, every single different doctor has been the same. "There's nothing wrong with you, I just think you are a stressed young woman!" Patronising smile! Yeah thanks a lot for the help! Society in general has turned into a nation of selfish me-me-me, greedy, apathetic, unsympathetic human beings with no compassion or consideration for anybody but themselves. Even those who are paid quite a fair bit more than everybody else to help people. I'm angry all the time. I just wish I was given a break from my shit life once and a while but no it's there 24/7. The only time I get to escape is when I'm asleep and most times I wish I could sleep forever. I'm taunted by nice dreams where I'm rich and I'm in a spa, walking beside an indoor swimming pool, the walls are literally Golden, everything is Golden and I'm dressed in luxurious clothing surrounded by similar people. Then I wake up in my tiny box room in my tiny house, with junk sprewn everywhere because there's no storage space to keep it in and I feel stifled, claustophobic like I can barely breath but if I were to go outside it'd be worse. Surrounded by Chavs and scummy neighbours and scummy families. So I remain inside, inside my own little world. Isolation is far better than having to remain in the company of these Assholes or even having to look at them. Because the fact of the matter is most people repulse me to the core.