Ok all my life we were poor. My dad would buy race car tiers instead of paying the electricity my mom stayed till I was like 3 then off to grandmas this was ok she took care off us me mom sister and grandma all in a 2 bed trailer my mom moved out to the shed so she could get her ged and work nights I remember being like 5 and mom going craze and holding a gun to her head complaining how roten me and my sister are. My aunt came over and took her to the loony bin she was there a couple months. At this time my dad remarried and was doing ok had a pool put in and all I remember calling him he would say we could come over for the weekend and so many times we would have are bags packed staring out the window crying cuz he never shouldn't even a call nothing, I remember I needed shoes bad my feet were bleading my mom asked him for money or if he could get me some he said no I went over to visit and my step sister had a new perm I was so hurt my dad realy never cared moving on my mom found a man had a job at the the bar working nights he worked constriction we had our own place then he started melesting me and of couse the threats of what would happen if I told it started at age 8 and went until age11 one threat was if you make this hard I will get ur sister instead so I lay quiet went to my happy place.. till it was over the man used to play games with my moms head like he told her I out sugar in his gas tank... I flattened his tire .... that tipe of shit when I was like ten me and my SIS decided to try and leave before he came for us in the night. He had a routeen it was come home eat dinner mom go to work he drinks and then the bango would come out that's when u knew soon he would want some so me and my 8 yr old SIS climbed out the window in our room and used the stuff behind the shed to hop over the wall into the ally. We got away that time..later snuck back in this lasted a couple times then he told my Mon that I was sneaking out to see a boyfriend "I'm ten. Realy a bf so he nailed the window shut we tried pushingfurniture front pig our door nothing worked a couple times he hit me and hard in the gut so not to leave a mark I told my mom one morning she did not beleave me and sent me to school I told the school they had cos take voice rec statement went to ky home played tape for step dad he dined and sent me home that day this is when I felt the worst it was such a long walk home and of course he wad waiting for me and said nice try I told you not to tell the melesting became worse.. I never should have told... then a year later I told my aunt and she beleave me she took me and my SIS to live w her my mom left state oh and they had a son together they sold the house and left state even my mommy left us I still cry my grandma even thot we lieing all we had was my aunt I was so damaged I was failing all classes I was ugly and ashamed and felt so so dirty my aunt tried at one point the doctors took me into a room to take samples out of my peepee I wad young no mom ,noone they even video taped the whole thing I was crying the whole tii ime we tried to put him in jail never worked.... in my life I have been molested by 2 men my step dad had a friend... raped as teenager 4 times and I have been with over 150 men before age 18 as a teenager my mom moved home without man so she got us kids my real dad gotinto major drugs and we stayed w him for a while to so ya I was on drugs to, iv done it all except haeoen I did method for 5 yrs and everything else iv been in high speed chases stolen for food dropen out of school had no way to shower dad did not pay water bill... but ya would have no ideavtoday me and my mom are best friends I am in my 20's and been with same great guy over 7 yrs I have a step kid who I see every day I went back to school and everything iv been drug free for 8 yrs and Sig free for 3 yrs I am a wife mom and daughter I'm 190 pounds cuse my birth control I was forced to be on I will never have kids of my own my step is all I want I have money I have love but people looking at my have no clue how hard it was to get here. So don't juge people unless you know that was just a portion of what happened I still hold a dark dark secret about my real dad I will never tell what I have let you know is only the tip of Thor iceberg as to that iv been through
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