I'm sure that my life is a piece of shit. It really is, and i almostly got over it, but it is still hard. I live in a very small town in Russia, and that really sucks, believe me. I live with my grandmother and dad, and, actually I'm a lesbian. Well, being an open lesbian here is equal to commiting suicide. This is VERY small town, so if I go out with a girl..well, that's impossible because everyone would know that and it would suck . Besides being lesbian, I'm fat and it drives me crazy but I can't make myself do something with it, 'cause i'm too depressed and sad all the time. And I REALLY need to loose my weight, i'm 100 kg. Other thing is that all girls I ever fancy are straight and since one totally failed case i've been absolutely unable to talk to any girl or anything. So in order to sum up: i'm fat ugly depressed lesbian who lives in a place you can't find on the map. So guys, life really sucks, doesn't it? |
1. Just say "life sucks", live a sucky life and die misserably.
2. To fucking do something about it!
I'm nobody to give you advice, but you might find this helpful or motivating:
1. You need to work on becoming independent. Either educate yourself using the internet or attending college, and develop a skill that people might pay for. Find a job, think how you can start making money and save it! Focus on saving/earning enough money to leave your relatives and start living in your own place (even if it's a room). And then, keep working and saving until you can move out of your crappy town!!
2. Start eating healthy and start exercising! Again, use the Internet to find out what to eat best and how to become slim again. And stick to it!!
3. Once you live on your own and are slim, go out and try to meet people or other lesbians girls in the places that they hang out, like gay bars and... well, I don't know where they hang out. Research it, ask friends, I don't know, but try to meet people!
*sigh* You know what I realized reading this site? That only warriors achieve happiness. Only those that shed tears of blood to achieve what they want ever become happy. Easier said than done? Sure it is. That's why so many people have crappy lives.
I hope this somewhat helps you. Meanwhile, I will keep working on my project to achieve my own freedom.
Éxitos!! >:D
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