LIFE SUCKS

is it to late

i will start of sayin i am 45 yrs old unemployed 380lbs ex addict who still needs percozets whenever i can get to feel ok oh yea take antidepressants.i was born into a blue collar family full of mental and other addications.i am the youngest of 4 only male of the sibs my father bein this strong hard workin police man and cons worker wanted nothin more than to have a son.he finally got his wish although my parents hated each other by this point but they had to have me.of course i thought as a child i had a great family until the age of 8 they divorced with my mom bein so weak and unable to stand up to my domineering father ps guess who i took after.life really began to suck my interest in schooland activieties started to lack this is where i first found the comfort of food.so fast foward to age 13 peer preesure no confidence in self came drugs by the time i was 18th i had been in and out of rehabs oh yea i managed to lose weight though lol so that was kool.i had finally found the drug that got me away from drugs for a while crack which now added the stealin of my familys mney and jewels.with my mom bein german she had moved back there so i was sent there at 19 which was great i started havin sex with a cousin my first real relationship 2 months later i was home free of drugs and measnin back in america with some confidence. i now was in shape from gym lookin real good was meeting and datin girls and had good ppl in my life.i finally subcumbed back into drugs and alcohol and marrieing a girl who was great but had her own problems not drugs though she was a great enabler.by this time io through away every mnoey makin opp plus had received about 3 inheritances includin my dads death he was 57 my rock never turned his back on mewhen others did.so much more but im at the worst point of my life cause im now truly runnin out of chances my wife pushes around this 380 lb male cause i lost all power in my life hate most of remainin family members.i hope i can lose my weight get a job or business and take control of my life 45 yrs and i havent so not sure where it ends or when young people out there please dont go though this shit get your self between drugs and alcohol esp if addication runs in your family.