I am pretty sure that it is safe to say that most people have heard of those kids who peak in High School and fall downhill from there, well I am one of them. I was not supposed to be though. I had intent on going to college and succeeding. Know I am in college and I do not even feel like doing anything, I honestly just feel like dying. Why live on? I used to be religious, but after a while the carnal sins became too strong for me to handle and like a elder person I am stuck in my ways. I have been fighting depression for some time now, I am never happy with anything I do. I could create a f**king cure for cancer and I still would not be happy with my accomplishment. I hate being around people causing me to be socially inept. I am going to let a lot of people who have invested a lot of time and money in me to succeed down because right now I am destine to fail. Suicidal thoughts have evolved into suicidal plans, I have a woman who I cannot please or give everything she wants and needs and she would probably be happier with someone else. I know the solution seems easy, just apply myself, but that is easier said than done. I do not feel like doing anything but wasting my miserable life away. | |
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