I came here to just get out how I feel inside about my life, but when I started reading other people's stories, they really tore my heart out. All of you could be my sons or daughters or even me... and it's so sad that in this world some of us could feel so lonely and unlovable. Do I have a solution? No, unfortunately I don't. My life too is unbearable right now. I'm in my 2nd marraige and it has gone horribly wrong in a way that I never, ever could have predicted. Am I at fault? Yes, for at least half of the problems, if not more. I work in a low-paying job because of the choice I made 25 years ago to quit college. My youngest son is flunking out of school and I cry daily over what his life will be like without an education to carry him through. I have survived a physically and emotionally abusive first marraige, a horrible divorce, poverty, and even cancer but still have not found that "good life" that supposedly exsists. I truly believe that God is there, however I find His silence toward me (and toward all of you) very depressing. From what I've been taught to believe, God loves us as a father... but I can't imagine a father letting some of us bleed and live in pain like this. Some days it's very hard to just breath, let alone believe that life is more than pain. | |
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