Well here I am now 40 years old and have found out my husband has had a 8 month affair. After the initial crying distraught then picking myself off the bathroom floor (laying there for over 3 hours)
I am now desperately trying to make myself happy. I had even accepted I was the one who drove him to a affair. Offering him a golden ticket even paying for a trip to get away from me (to miss me) to Miami. How stupid am I? Now he is staying at his mothers and all of his things are still here. He refuses to go to counseling and only wants me when drinking.
I'm just sick about it all, especially because of our 12 yr old son.
After so many years together splitting is especially hard. I don't think we could work because I can't trust him At All. He twists things always on me saying I cheated (which is a lie) and I am the one with the problem. I know I am a beautiful wonderful thoughtful person who deserves more.
I guess I feel as if I'm letting our son down.
So no more serving him breakfast lunch and dinner, no more sponge baths, no more total body massages, no more playing maid or servant and no more laundry. I hope he finds a crazy person who stabs him in the leg for his wallet.
I was an amazing wife and the grass isn't always greener..
I just hope maybe I'll find happiness. The only happiness I've found is separation = weight loss. | |
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I am convinced that you will meet someone who will appreciate you fully!
Your 12 yrs old son loves you and always will.
Maybe someday, I'll be fortunate enough to meet someone
that approaches the quality of your humanity.
Take care, Goddess!
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