Shit, I couldn't beleave I found this site. It's good knowing I'm not alone, well anyways let me get started. I'm 29 single and l live at home. I own my own buissness cause I'm a high school drop out. The cool part is I own a dry cleaners cause I'm half Asian lol, I thought I might be good at it cause I'm Asian, but no I suck. I've been doing this shit for 6 hellesh years and ended up finding myself more broke then my teen years. You would think 14 hours of pressing clothes and meeting assholes everyday would fatten up your wallets, but no. About 3 years ago my girlfrend left me and called me looser and the truth is I think she right. What she doesn't know is that I did it for her and when she left she took with her my selfesteam. Now I learned to hate myself and don't bother going out, other then teach judo at a small dojo. Don't get me wrong I'm not bragging, I go there cause unlike everything else in my life, I feel I belong. I'm not any good at it but damn cleaning clothes for a living makes me wanna run alway and never come back, but I won't run. Cause what else can I do? I try hiding the fact that I hate life, I put on a smile and greet people with kindness but like most of you I fucking hate life. I don't even have an option, I don't care anymore about anything. At the gym I meet people with so much happiness there always claiming how wonder life is. I see them and just wanna never leave my house. In fact I love staying home. If I had to pick from going out and hanging out with frends I'll pick chilling out at home with my dogs, I got four of them by the way and I don't mind being around my parants. I think I was born a looser and my sister was born a winner cause she's doing real well with herself.
Sorry this shit is so damn, I just wanted to vent even if it means fucking up my spelling and don't get me started on my grammer. Thank you!!! | |
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