Seems like boredoom has found my way here. My story may not sounds like it sucks or pathetic like the rest of them here, but i feel that my life sucks. Although i have all the basic things in life ( food,housing,allowances), i still feel sad. Everyday, i would wake up so late in the afternoon and straight away i would play computer games. Its like i got no life. People tell me how smart i am but i see little hope in my future. Its like so dim and i cant probably be rich in the future. I don't even have an idea as to how i am able to earn so much. I do average in my exams, passing most of it. I self-assured myself by telling me that i only studied the night before and its alright to score that low. I have friends in school but they don't contact mi often especially during holidays, i feel like i broke off from the real world... into the virtual world i am in now. I play computer games from the time i woke up and until past midnight maybe 3am or 4am. I feel that i got no life and no aim. There's a blackhole in me and i cant stop it sucking everything into it, dissapearing forever. Everytime i think about school, i felt so depressed. Homework is piling up like a mountain and there is no end to it. I don't even feel like starting on it. I consider to start a blog to rant about my boring life but motivation just stops there. I think about my future, what would i become and what childhood memories will i remember? Computer games? Those rounds i played with random people? Could i even remember happy times at all? I doubt so. Maybe there isn't any happy moments in my life. Maybe there is but i don't feel happy. I can only remember myself being avoided and emo'ing at one corner. Most of my classmates don't talk to me. I am known as the cyber-warrior in cyberworld, wasting all my life there and achieving nothing in reality. This routine cant stop and the holiday is coming to an end. Then the boring routine starts again. School and such. I am just such a failure.
Currently i type all this just to waste my time instead of wasting it playing computer games. Even i felt boring and pointless to play any games now. I seems to lose all motivation in life and feel like just dying. But my brain tells me to live on and carry on this sad life where there is no point in everything i do. Ok bye. Helps me to reflect all i have done.