So this is my story. Might not be much but Im drowning myself with everything and everyone.
My life is kept in a bubble I have 4 sisters with old fashion parents. Were all girls.. meaning we need to get our education before we have boyfriends. I'm in college and i have a boyfriend, parents don't approve, but they don't need too because they don't know. How do i see him on the weekends. I am starting new things in this year 2011. I believe i am under so much pressure, I am over stress and i don't think i am living life at this moment. I am so afraid of losing my guy just because i am so attached to him, and i love him. The one thing i need for this relationship to stay strong is communication, and i don't think we have that yet. been together on and off for a year.!! Boy problems, trust issues, attachment issues, attitude problems, i am even afraid to write down what other problems i have. I JUST WISH I CAN SCREAM TO THE WORLD. LET ALL MY STRESS OUT. and feel better. I want to go back in time and wish i was 5 again. No problems to face, turning 18 is harsh. it could be the best years and it could be your learning years. I'm lost and i need to be found. I want my boyfriend to look at me in my eyes and tell me that he will never let go and try to make things better. Not to make me feel less than him, not to cry at night anymore because he is cheating on me or because he called me out, not to be afraid of the future because everything will turn out to be ok. I need communication in my life. i need someone to understand me. I feel that sooner or later i'm going to POP and hurt myself. AT this moment i am hurting and i need someone to show me the light. | |
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