All my life I have picked on, made fun of, yelled at it sucks. I had 1 friend throughout school until high school then I have people who I hang around with but could probably care less that im there. I still get bullied in high school and it makes me so depressed that I go home and sit in my room playing xbox then i forget to do something or something else and my mom yells at me which then causes and argument between them... bcuz of me my parents almost got divorced multiple times. my mom calls me a user even though i pay for everything of mine but since i don't help around the house im a user which adds to my depression. I also have a older sister that bcuz of her ruins everything. her college is so much i have to go to a state school if im lucky. and she ruins everything for me... the week after christmas i usually go up to maine and that is the only time im ever happy and dont think about suicide and i havnt been in awhile. but bcuz of her we are changing our house so she can have a bigger room so my dad is working on the house that week so i cant go up...she ruins everything for me.. then to top it off i suck at the drums...i can barely play and ive been playing for awhile. I suck at all the sports I play. Like i said before 0 friends and I'm now a junior and I have had 0 girl friends... I have had some tell me im cute but they wouldnt go out with me or then they ignore me when i say hi. Everyday i think about how better everyones life would be if i wasnt born or if anyone would miss me if i die... I consider suicide everyday and everyday i think about it more and more...i just want life to end | |
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