LIFE SUCKS

Chewed up and spat out

I feel chewed up and spat out. I've been used by my selfish boyfriend, who has turned around and dumped me after I tried to leave him and he begged me to take him back. He was always selfish and put his work and hobbies as the most important thing. If I wanted to do something with him I had to ait till he had finished everything else. If things didn't go his way, he'd get mad and call me horrible names and say that I take after the bad side of my family. He has said that my life is a mess. He almost hit me once because I got upset when he said he wouldn't go to a concert with me that he'd previously said he'd go to. Yet at the same time he's sweet around my friends and they think he's a great guy. My mum died recently in a violent way, and I had to organise the funeral/deal with police/coroner etc by myself bc the rest of my family, who I'm not close to, are socially akward. My boyfriend came to my home town and was great and supportive, and everyone thought he was such a great guy. But when we left to go back together, he started being verbally abusive again when things were not about him. It was like he thought that he'd give me some time, then things could go back to normal where he was the most important person. He would make me cry and say he didn't care if I didn't have anyone now. Then he kicked me out of our flat. I told him I was going back to my hometown and that I couldn't take the relationship anymore, especially after losing mum. After a few days he apologised so much and said he cared about me and wanted to stay together, come out and help me deal with my mum's estate etc. I hoped it would work out...and hewas so sweet for a while. But now he has turned around and said he's not coming, I made him an abuser, and that he's so glad the relationship is over. I feel alone and worthless. Manipulative prick. Thanks 2010.