LIFE SUCKS

my life is hell and is falling faster everyday.

I cant imagine what it would be like to live in a 3rd world country but i can imagine what it would be like to live in this world.
im 16 im fat,ugly,failing school im grade 11 in grade 9 classes,i suck at everything and anything (school,games,making friends,ect.), i havent had a relationship in over 5 years,i have no friends, im so poor we rarely have food and sometimes go a day without, im not involved in any sports anymore, im patheticly weak (only being able to bench 60), im short, i stink even after showers, im fogetful, and i am constantly sick with puking/flu, my parents constantly fight and have physical fights in which i try to break up, my 3 sibbling hate me. i hate my life i am constantly being looked down upon and made fun of or people tell me that im useless stupid fat pathetic worthless not going to get through life ect. and i feel like there telling the truth, my teachers even tell me im going to be expelled because i miss so much school. i wanted to blow up the world at one point and at a next i wanted to kill people but i know that wouldnt help, i have nothing i am nothing and i dont know what to do.