LIFE SUCKS

Regrets?

I am currently 16 years old. When I was 13, I met a girl that I had a crush on. After some time, I managed to confess to her that I like her. We went out and we were doing fine. I had a great time with her and felt so happy whenever I was with her. I begin to enjoy seeing her in school so much that I had more fun in school and my results improved. But hers dropped. (being students and Asian we were academically oriented)
After some struggling, we decided that we would work hard individually for our own good for now, and promised each other that we would wait till we are older and have more time for love. We both know that studying is the higher priority for now, and I pray everyday that we would both end up in University and if fate and destiny allows, we would be back again. I believed, and observed, that separating us (temporarily) indeed had a positive impact on her. I was happy with the results.
Me on the other hand though, went through minor depression. It's just that it is so hard to control myself not to see her. But I hold those feelings back, because her studies were improving. My studies were worsening but I didn't care. I felt lonely and miss her greatly but I didn't care. All I ever cared was for her to secure a bright future. One year had passed since then.
Being 16 and on our final year in junior high, I thought that it might be a good time to finally catch up with each other again after so long. Who knows, I may be lucky enough to be with her again. I decided to find her and get back to her. I had high hopes and was both nervous and looking forward to it. For these past two years the only girl I had been thinking about was her, and finally meeting up again after we had (at least she had) worked hard through our junior high life was something I had been dreaming about all this while.
But reality shocked me. Not only had she fallen for another guy, she had also fell out of it, in just one year. What surprised more was the fact that she told me she had felt more love and care from this guy, who was with her for less than one year. And while I left her (only meant it to be temporary, we both knew it too) for her good, and making some sacrifices along the way, that guy left her for another girl. I couldn't understand her because from what I feel, she
She was my first crush, and also the first one that I confessed to. For me, she was my first love. And now I had lost her, allowed her to get hurt by some guy, and had horrible study results. My only option now is to try and forget about her, work hard for the next final two years before University, and hopefully find love again, only this time, I will wait till I am older.

SO, thanks for reading till here. Please leave your opinions so hopefully I can learn something new from all the more experienced people out there. Do tell me if I made any mistakes along the way, or it was just bad luck. Thanks guys, Peace.