Im 17 years old and have never had a real job every time ive been close to having a job theyve said i lack enthusiasm. i have i 15 year old girlfriend who i think i might be in love with, and i fear she'll leave me because i dont have a job. All my friends seem too have suddenly matured and can just get jobs simply. i feel tht if i were able to get a job things would change. Now reading this you may think, "its simple get a job and your problems will be over" only thats not the whole story. i have a voice in my head, a self critic if you will. It talks of my failures, of how im a failure and how i will always be one. this voice has only came about in the past few months when i started smoking cannabis,i also feel like everyone is talking about me behind my back about how im insane, and that some childhood friends hate me for no apparent reason. i get this when i drink and i get memorys that are'nt real but the voice keeps telling me they are. i stopped smoking and the voice became less frequent but it still creeps up now and again. it sapps my confidence and makes me lethargic. i hate the state im in but i cannot find the drive to get out of it. Im resonably intellegent and plan to persue further education in writing but i cannot get myself out of this rut. anybody else have these sort of problems?
p.s dont tell me im skitsophrenic. i know im not because i know the voice is not real, its just my subcouncious and a strong sense of anxiety and my insecurity. at least i hope it is.... | |
But how about if we change it so it doesn´t suck anymore???? If everybody who killed himself and who wants to kill himself/herself did something to change this world instead – it would be much much better already. Let´s unite and do something instead of committing suicide.
search on google for: EQUAL MONEY ORGANIZATION and DESTENI GROUP... and you will find help and practical solutions… you will also find me there on the forum under Greg and GregWiater
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