My life sucks because i have no goal in life. I tried to find something to achieve, but i always failed because on the way i realized that it wasnt what i really wanted. Then i tried to do something different but the same thing happened. Now i know that i have no clue about what i wanna do with my life. All i have experienced so far, were jobs i never wanted, forced to do by my parents who never stopped complaining about me, sitting and not beginning a career like i should. its not that im lazy or anything, i never stopped working, as a waiter in restaurants or cafeterias, as a receptionist in hotels, as a manager in parkings or as an employer in a house-selling company. Its just that after a year i would quit from all these jobs. because i felt miserable spending 9 hours per day doing a job i hated. Now (forced again by my parents) im working as a flight attendant for an airline, and after 5 months i really wanna quit again. I just had enough. I know ill go back to zero, ill have to start all over again, and end up quitting again, cos i wont like what i will be doing again. Are there other people experiencing the same thing? Or is it just me? Oh, i also quit college after one year, cos i realized that i didnt wanna get a degree or anything.
I really feel like i dont want anything in my life, on a career-job level, but the fact that im forced to earn my own money, makes me get jobs that only make me more and more miserable and i end up always quitting. What should i do?
(please, no ironic answers to my question, they simply....wont help....)
Ahhm, that's it, thats my reality. | |
Did college til 18 in some pretty boring subjects, got bored so decided to follow my passion in music, went to music college for 3 years and got in a band.
We did pretty well and toured a lot but never made a proper breakthrough, we all did bar jobs and stuff when not touring to get us through, so when all that ended, I guess I got on a big downer.
I've since done a degree in computing, for god knows what reason, just cos I liked making websites I suppose. I did a job in Computing for 18 months and hated it, hated the sitting in offices, not speaking, sat with boring people.
So having left that behind, I'm now stuck as to what to do next. I have a feeling I am the sort of person who will never find my place, or happiness. Maybe I am just a depressive type of person who can't see enough light in anything to really bother and put my full energies into anymore.
I really hate the pressure of having to earn 'x' amount of money just to survive and pay for food/bills. I find a lot of things very boring, people seem too happy with mundane lives - I guess I am looking for something more, something with real value and depth. I'll let you know if I find it!
we are all wild, insane, crazy, out of control idiots and life takes us and tries to make us into a battery or a robot. it's totally against our nature. that is why we all have a problem with it and that is why it makes us miserable. it's just a curse i guess. i guess when adam and eve ate the apple it ruined life for all of us. it's just hard to keep going and to stay positive through it all. it's so depressing to think about it. we all just wanna get out of here and get past this junk. all we can do is try to stay reasonably happy while going through this life. it's not easy that's for sure.
Life is a treadmill - it really is a rat race. I've been so far down this path I even bought the game 'Ratrace'!
I just don't know. There seem to be so many people, all hurting but even helping them find their own way doesn't pay enough to cover the rent. And I've got a piece of paper that says i'm qualified to 'help people'. We can't all be brain surgeons, that I do know but I can't even teach Yoga and make it pay.
If every body is looking then i've got to ask, what is it we are looking for?
I have found several ways help cope. On my end. And it usually helps push me through.
1. I try and read finacial books like. Think and grow rich. For one.
It seems to help keep my mind on the goal that I want see the world and it takes money and sacrrifice.
2 its wierd but I found meditating works wonders. Find a temple and get the free books to learn about.
3. Throw a party !! Have fun. My favorite
Idk I find my self all the time quiting jobs I am lucky to be in a union so when I ask to get laid off I get unenjoyment. It fits my wanting to quit ever couple years or 6 months. Lol.
Well good luck and trust throw a party! Nothing makes you feel as cool.!B-)
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