The truth is not always easy... I am hating life right now...Back in school again, tried screenplaywriting school, personal training school, bartending school, and here I am barely scraping by on welfare and one night a week at a catering hall. I quit a job about a year and a half ago and in this dreadful economy I wasn't able to find another one. What employers want is BACHELORS degree holders. Well, I dropped out of college, so now what. I couldn't cut it as a personal trainer, or a bartender... I wish I could go back and relive my life, I would have done everything differently. The only way( and I learned the hard way) people like me get out of their bumblefuck suburban drone towns is through edumacation! I'm no salesperson. I feel like everywhere I turn someone is trying to sell me something. I don't even leave the house anymore because everything costs a dollar amount. Even friendships sometimes. I hate the fucking stinking suburbs... At least in a city there are other poor people there to relate to! In the suburbs, its the biggest lie out there. Everyone is trying to be something they're not!! THe upper middle class are one hell of a group!!They make me sick. What happened to poor and rich?? The " upper middle" class is a joke. THey'r either looking down to the poor, or trying desperately hard to keep up with the wealthy. When is it going to end?? What really sucks is that I've been there and lived in a city and I know how it is. Within an hour you can hop on a train or a bus and be at your desired destination. Driving everywhere SUCKS!!
ANd my blood relatives( my parents) are the worst. THey think they deserve a goddamn medal just for bringing me into the world. HEy, I'm not the one who told you to go and get pregnant!!ANd they're so naive to the real world too, which is great. THey just keep telling me "everything's going to be alright" YEah, thats their job, they've been selling me on the idea of "middle class suburbanite" for how long now?? Okay, so I graduate school , and then what?? Move into my own place in suburbia somewhere, and start looking for someone to spend the rest of my life with.. I hate the lifestyle of a middle class suburbanite!!I hate it here!!!!!!!!! | |