My"friends" only talk to me when their bored, or pregnant, in ones manner. Do i have anything to do with their life? no.
They just call me up to talk down to me and to remind themselves at least they aren't as lame as me.
Im clinically depressed. Soon to be 20, and still im trying to complete high school. Cause two years of my life were wasted on being locked away in (several) madhouse residential centers. The facts state: im lame, a loser, a mess. Always will be. Still waiting to loose the virginity bullsh*t on top of it. And the sad part is...
When i look in the mirror, i look desent.
I wasntborn ugly, or in a poor house with a abusive family, lke all the people ive been around lately.
No. my life is screwed up for one reason. Me
weak me. Acting sad, after awhile, can really get you into serious trouble, trust me.
Ontop of all this crap, im gay (which is still hard even though the media makes it out like being gay is IN now. that the gay guy is now the center of affection. Sorry,not true)Being gay is hard by itself, and it always will be i an imperfect world.
And!!! guess what:I have a social disorder. Asbergers syndrome, and bipolar, and slight OCD all combine to make a disagnosess of "autistic traits." Now that i was born with. But who cares? Just a big excuse right? I know theres no one to blame for my problems. just me, like i said. | |