This seems somewhat pathetic but I'm going to go ahead and do it anyway because I'm at my lowest point right now.
I've missed my university place because I missed my grades by a matter of marks that I can count on my hands. I was inches away from what I wanted to do, but I might well have missed the mark by a country mile and it wouldn't have made any difference.
Now I'm looking for a job to tide me over until I can resit those RAT BASTARD exams that I'm so sick of. I swear, if I ever meet an exams marker I might just kill them out of spite and bugger the consequences. However, of course, there are no jobs available, not even in a bloody supermarket. Everywhere else, even simple jobs in a call centre, require "prior experience", which I can't get because it seems nowhere offers any places for beginners.
My parents are constantly on my back and it seems that no-one is there to offer reassurance or just to take my side. I've got no girlfriend and no real friends to speak of. I feel that everyone else is just reminding me of my own inadequacies. I feel as if the whole world exists only for the purpose of making me miserable. I'm teetering on the brink of suicide.
And today is my birthday. Yet I feel so sick of life that I'd rather sit here and write this than do anything like celebrating. This is what rock bottom feels like. | |
I also noticed the lack of entry positions. I suggest doing some volunteer work in your field. At least that will get you out of the house and meeting people.
Keep truckin
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