LIFE SUCKS

sucks

my life sucks. my fam is struggling finacially. when i was 6 i fell in love with gymnastics. i was never serious about it but one day i had a choice to join a club. i had exactly 2 seconds to make the choice and i said no. i was stupid. im serious about it-i didnt realize it till later. its harder than u think. imagine ur life without that one thing that u love b/c u were stupid and said no. and u are stuggling with money so its even harder to go back. imagine somethin like taylor swift never picking up the gutair b/c she didnt hv the money to. and she didnt noe she was serious about music. its been over 8 years and i regret it ever since. also my mom doesnt care and give a shit. she treats me like im 12 and it took me till i was 14 to finally buy me a bra. everyone got one in like the fifth grade. me? grade 9. and i fit b4 that. my mom doesnt care about my feelings at all. if my bf broke up with me she would tell me to suck it up. my dad-sont mentoin. my brother only cares about music and the computer. hes in university and dreads gong out. i faced so many friend dilemas tht no one ever has. my bff puts me down. none of my friends care. my bff told me she liked my bf while i was dating him. she didnt fel like it was a vad thing. he was a crappy bf anyway but i still liked him. i wish i knew he cheated mre than once. i stayed by him for over 9 months. i have onyl met one of my 50 cousins. i have never been to an amusment park. ppl always look at me like im a kid cuz i look young. i have a bad haircut. i had no friends when i headed into high school. ppl spreaded rumors about me. i already am shocked im saying all this.