when i was little, my daycare teacher abused me. She bit me so hard once it left bruises. I went through kindergarten to 4 th grade happily. But when i got to the summer i was going into sixth grade i got a crush on my neighbor who i was already friends with his sisters. His mom was like mine,my parents had fought alot so i went next door with my best friends and my boyfriend andmy mom figure. One day the girls went to visit their relatives in a different state for the summer. Then the boys left. My mother figure, who me and my best friends loved so much was found... dead. I was depressed, started middle school as the only goth, then i started noticing personality changes. One so happy, so funny, had no paiQaving more insomnia, personality changes, ans misunderstanding words and misreading. More headaches too
I have always been different, what remember how but i ended up on my couch. Ive always been different, im called crazy, stupid, worthless to society. But when i look in the mirror, all i see is a 12 year old girl who has been torchered, abused, betrayed, and lost since she was born. I am 2 people. I keep it to myself, everyone thinks its acting. I am different. And i know i am evil. My parents fight, my cousin cost me one of my best friends with drama. And my other best friends are unknowingly replacing me. I can not love, for all i am is destructive, and hateful. I only trust God. I know he will never doubt me, even when i doubt myself. | |
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