LIFE SUCKS

Just fucking tired.

srry if i dont spell eny of this right or enything haha.

ok lets just get this out of the way 14 yr old soon to be 15 in like 6 days also im a girl.

god where to begin my story? the past years until about 2010 have been just one big blur. i used to hate so much now im just disappointed. all my life iv been lied to, i dont even trust my perents. my dad used to beat my brother and my sister, thank god he has never touched me. my mom used to be a alcoholic until about a year go, but unlike my father she abused me sometimes when i started to get older (i was abut 10 when she started to) but she would never do enything too severe like punch me billion times. no it was always like though a picture frame at me or punch my back hard enough for me to fall. my mom and i would always argue too.
anyways on with my story. my mom has two daughters (me and my half sister)
my dad had one daughter(me)and a son (my half brother)
my brother and sister would do durgs when they where younger (there like 22,23 yrs old now)
my dad would aways say things about how my mother was a horrible person and how she always lied to me about him and how things happend (things i did not no or things i dont remember) and my mother would do the same about my father. i dont no who to trust about who is always stirring up trouble for us. to be honest i dident care i just hated that i was in the middle of there fights. i hated both of them and now im just to tired to care i just want to get away from both of them im so disapointed in them.
enyways soon after they separated they where sappost to get divorced soon but oh no they couldent even do that. its been years i mean im basicly 15 and that hasn't even happend.
a few years ago when my parents where arguing about child custody over me they managed to get the judge to (i dont no wat to call it) enyways now im stuck in my providence and not aloud to leave until im like 18.
so now im 15 and my mom ignored that and took me outside of our providence when i turned 14 to live with y grandma and grandpa only because my mom is fucking poor (although she doent like to admit it and spends money like she isent poor) and shes in debit too. at first was like YAY! cus i couldent take living in that prison of a place and never aloud to leave. but it is great having the feeling like i can go enywhere. but livng here i have to sleep on the floor (just fucking great) and im always freazing at night. my mom always acts like im ungreatful but she sleeps in the guest bedroom on a queen bed. she has said i can sleep with her (im 15 basicly isent that reason enough why i cant? i need my privacy!) also my grandpa is always trying o argue with me or anyone basically and my grandma has dementia so i have to ancwer constant questions like repeatedly and i no i souldent be upset about it but its fucking annoying.
anyways now all im doing is trying to get my life in order and make my dreams a reality (to get away frm my perents and make a brighter future).

srry this is really just all over the place haha and my wrighting sucks (not to mention my punctuation haha) also there is much more to this story but im just to frickig lazy to wright it haha. enyways thank you to enyone who reads this.