hi my name is mike.my life is not a good one.
at the age of four me and my family got evicted out of our apartment when i was 5 years old.we moved to another city.we moved right into the worst neighborhood in the whole entire city(and possibly the whole entire COUNTY)
since i was the new kid, i would get picked on by the local kids.they would beat me up and bully me. not only this, but my mother would beat me profusely. if i we're to guess how many times i was jumped it would be too many to count.when i was about five and a half i seen my first stabbing.it was a good friend of my older sisters and he had to go to the hospital. i was very young but understood what happened.
about a month later they took my pets away from us. this was becuase we couldn't properly feed them since we had a family of 8 (including a bum living in our basement)and only got 20,000 dollars a year.
about a couple weeks after i turned 6 i was put into a foster home. i didn't know this then but i would be placed through 32 different foster homes and programs.
let me give you a background of my family and such. my mom is extremely overweight diabetic, who has PTSD( i also have that), depression (i also have that), bipolar disorder, and is a major claustorphobiac.
both of my sisters we're both raped by my mothers previous boyfriends.
even though i am white one of my 2 half sisters is half puerto-rican and hung out with the LK (although she is not a member). she had her first kid when she was 18.
my other sister is sister is also a half sister but got pregnant when she was 16 or 17 (i can't remember becuase she wants to stay out of the family life.)
i have a younger brother who i you'st to beat out of jealosy.
my dad is a loving father but is a pure coward.
i have lost 17 close friends by many ways. but mostly by suicide and violence.i have seen many stabbings and some shootings throughout my life.
i was first arrested when i was 12 for assualt and battery, but since i was young they put me on probation for a year. after that i would bring knifes to school to fend for myself. i would spray paint all over vehicles and walls. i jioned a small posse and would jump people with them and vandalize everything.
that was when i was 13-15. but now, i'm now 17 and am in my last foster home in a small town. i love them. right now i have made a lot of friends but 1 i have a deep crush on. even worse is she is going to college in the near future.
i haven't even told her (naomi) how much i love her. i haven't a clue on what to do about it. i mean, i absolutely love her, but she is a bit of a flirter (she has alot of affairs with other men) i think i just want to be friends with her. but i don't. i've also known her for a year.
that not all that bothers me right now though: how will i ever become someone. i feel as if i will be a nobody, a hoodlum, a prisoner. i dont want to be that though.
right now the only think i want deeply is a girlfriend of my own, but everywhere and everyone i turn to is in a relationship. | |
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