LIFE SUCKS

tired

I work as a surgery resident. I work 24 h / 7 days a week. All I wanted was to help people, really.. as naive as it sounds.

I wake up at 4 in the morning rushing to get to work, have to see 20 patients in one hour, then go to meetings, operate and see trauma emergencies until 9 in the evening. Don't even have time to eat not even pee for God's sake. Then check on those 20 patient's again. They're all upset, all the time. Now, get crap from the nurses. Go home, it's almost midnight. Too late to see your family. Read, study, get better everyday, pay bills check your email.

My family calls me selfish because I wanted to spend my only day off in a month reading and studying. I give every minute of my life to be a great surgeon so I can help people. I would hate to have a clown operate on me or my family. But really. I do whatever it takes to cheat death and save your life and then you make a mess because the hospital food is not warm enough?
People can be so ungrateful, I've become everything I despise. Busy, no time for family, never return calls, no friends I hate my life