I am going to be 18 soon and I've registered to a college to do my first degree. Anyway, my parents has been on and off since I was in elementary school. I learned how to lived with it. I have two younger brothers. I am the eldest and the only daughter. I love my dad and my mum equally but I dont get to see my dad much. My dad is an alcoholic but he has a business. It used to be good but lately, the business ran out of money. My mum on the other hand does almost everything without consoling my dad. She trust a man and somehow gave most of her money to the man, like an investment towards something that she doesnt even know about hoping that the man will give her more money. My two brothers are still in high school and my parents are broke. Today my dad said he is going to divorce my mum and the house that Im living in will be catered. I dont know whom to rely on. I cant stop thinking about my brothers as they are younger than me. I dont know how I am going to survive this. I dont even have the money right now to pay for the first semester in college. I dont talk about my problems to my friends. I keep everything to myself. Heck, I dont even feel like telling my brothers about this problem but its killing me inside. I am not pretty and I do not have much friends either. I have to let this out of my chest and i found this freaking website. It hurts me so much. I am usually strong but right now, I just feel so weak. so fucking weak, that I cant even protect myself. I feel useless in a way too somehow. I want everyting to be back to normal and the term "normal" to me means years back ago when I was in kindergarten. I guess that was the only time that I actually have a normal functional family. | |
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