anger and hatred and sadness is all i can feel | Posted by anonymous at May 29, 2012 | Tags: Family 2012 May |
since i was small my mom had dementia i watched her turn into a person that cant go to the bathroom alone i watched her as she forgot my name we dont have much money and after my mom got sick it got alot worse because she used to work now she needs someome to feed her and wear a diaper and its not because she is old but because her brain has deformed to the point that she cant do anything.8 years i saw her getting stupider making mistakes forgeting how to write,pissing in her pants then trying to hide her pants,breaking stuff and forgeting where she put things.now this is sad very sad whats worse is that i am not the only one like this.life is horrible there is no fairness to justice no GOOD.after my life turned to shit i became the class clown because i needed to feel not alone later my life was turned into gaming then i became a world of warcraft addict which really helped to distract me from the fact that my life is shit but now my internet company has problems and i cant play wow anymore which made my life even worse i was done with school a year ago.my dad now doesnt even have enough money to send me to collage because of all the spending done on my mom to stay alive all those expensive pills doctor visits that never cured her and never will.never had a date not because i am not attractive but because i dont have finacial capabilty to handle a girlfriend i cant even invite her to my home because its a mess thanks to my mom dont get me wrong i love my mother i love her so much but i really wished she died instead just her brain dieying slowly.that way at least it would have been quick. | |
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