LIFE SUCKS

I just want to back to the reality

I'm a depressive person... I just hate my life right now I was unhappy all my life nobody cares if I'm alright ... I just get married a few months ago I moved to another country because I was fall in love but then I was away from my mom my friends and my normal life because of love and now I'm crying because I have problems with my husband he is a good guy but WHEN he wants to be mean he is good! AND make my life a big black hole....I just feel stuck I cant go to school I cant work I cant have my own money I cant drive I cant go out because I don't have FRIENDS.. I just hate my life I JUST FEEL that I cant keep living.... I was a singer in my country I was doing a good job and when I moved every possibilities to be a singer in the future disappear ... I supposed the people told me don't get married you going to get divorce I was blind..... I just feel like a waste of time ... SHIT !