My life sucks becase I am a 21 year old looser. I've been on the bottom of the ladder for my whole life. I used to always say stupid bizzare or retarded shit just because I hate myself so much that it just came naturally to make a fool out of myself. Now I'm totally freaked out at the fact that word of my behavior has spread around a little bit, I feel like everyone knows me and thinks I'm a freak, crazy or a piece of shit. I rarely go outside anymore to avoid human contact. I feel hopeless, I have no skills or talents, the personality of a wet cardboard box. I hate a lot about society, I hate how people dont do anything to change things they just do their job so they can retire and shit. I really dont want to be around people who are so aware of what a fuck up I am, its making it so I cant even make myself go outside anymore. Maybe one day I'll move away and.... see the problem is my attitude because of my low self esteem, other people have been putting me down my whole life, especially my family so im just a broken shell of a person. I cant think positively so I can't behave or interact positively, I'm basically fucked. | |
Believe it or not, people are usually so busy and preoccupied with their own lives, they usually don't give a shit about anyone else.... So, as much as you may think that people are "talking about you" it's more than likely all in your head??? Talk to a therapist. You could be suffering from a number of things- paranoia, phobias, etc.. If loved ones have been abusive, that screws with anyone's head! Look into psychiatrist- you may get some solid answers, and anything at this point- would help-
Cursed
u sound alot like me i try to avoid contact and keep hidin behond closed doors as well i guess its the feeling in our heads that noone will like is and have that fear of rejection,so primarily the energy u give off u will attract pple who also think that as well,like cursed said noone else is thinkin how u look or if u not good enough to talk to,as its the mind tellin us that and therefore we belive in what we think, just be postive to yourself everyday and take one step at a time,thats what im doin.
good luck my friend
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