LIFE SUCKS

Is this real life?

Well well where to start....Guess I can begin with my age which is 24...I am currently living with my parents. I dropped out of highschool at the end of my senior year because I just didn't want to wake up and go to school anymore. I was overweight and just liked to sit at home playing video games. I am a pretty smart guy which has come in really handy for lying my way through the endless bullshit my life has been. I've never been completely honest with anyone and don't want anyone to know the real me...I have lived in California and got to make up a whole new version of myself. I lost lots of weight things were good...then I sabotage myself again and all back into the same hole.....Went off to college...partied my way through an entire semester finishing with a .3 GPA (Yes ladies and Gentlemen it can be done) SO now I flunked out of college....got nice and fat again and moved back in with the parents. So I make another trip out to Cali....lose lots of weight...while pretending to be another version of myself yet again. So I finish up there move to florida with what little money I have and get a job....this last all of 6 months...which is probably the longest I've committed to anything in my life without quitting or destroying any possible future....SOOO now....I am this 24 year old virgin...with no money...no education...living with my parents again...approaching 400 lbs.(for the 3rd time in my life)...oh not to mention my penis is less than average making any self esteem I have meerly just a show...So what I do with my days is sit at my computer playing video games and talking to my friends online and eat my way through the fridge in wee hours of the morning...and I just want to be left alone to do this until the day I die. I have no hopes for my future and have accepted the fact that I will probably be alone for the rest of my life unless some miracle occurs....and now my parents want to kick me out or send me to another live in program so I can lie my way through some success and save my nice comfy dark hole ready and waiting for me to fall back in it. I have no motivation to change and could care less about becoming something bigger and better...because honestly what am I really doing anything for...whats the point in it all...I'm just rambling on and will stop typing now...if anyone would like to send me e-mail....Please feel free(IsThisRealLife@gmx.com)...it will give me more things to fill in my endless hours at the keyboard adventuring the world wide web