LIFE SUCKS

this is a sucky life and i wish i were dead

My horrific divorce was 7 years ago. It included my ex-husband stealing my kids dumping them off with people they didn't know and 14 months of an agonizing search for my younger son, my older son had been sent back to me after a few months. Now I worked went to college and raised my boys. I can not get a good job and just as I am invisible to employers I am also invisible to men. No one loves me. I do not drink, use drugs or hurt other people, I actually volunteer in my community. I pay my rent yet my landlord finds reasons to hassle me. He goes into the house whenever he feels up to it. No warning or anything. I am still raising my younger son who is so angry at the world he feels like I OWE him everything under the sun. I am not happy with life. My life is crap. I am the only one in my family to go through the steps and actually graduate from high school and then go to college and graduate;however, I am the most financially depressed as well. I have worked all of my life since I was 13. Nothing ever goes right. I have multiple disabilities and still I work and try but I am belittled by everyone I know. I have been raped, beaten and left for dead and no one cared. I just got criticized. When my ex-husband left me and my kids on the side of a road homeless, I got criticized and told it was all my fault. How could have been? I did everything for him and took great care of the house and kids while i also worked. why does everyone hate me. I hate my life I hate it and here soon will probably commit suicide. There is nothing worth living for.