I'm a 35 year old attractive woman. Married for 4 years with no children (not by choice).
I married a man who was not my type but I fell in love with the fact that he was such a Good guy and he adored me. And I later grew to love him. People always joke with him and say how did you score her as your wife. And I never cared what people thought about us because he was perfect for me and that's all that mattered. I love him! But over the years he stopped being intimate with me. I tried to ignore the fact that my husband didn't want to have sex with me by working extra hard at work and slimming down to my high school size (and I was already small). I'm not bragging but I have a body of a toned teenager and a face of a movie star and my husband does not want to have sex with me. The bigger problem is that we both want kids. How the fuck can we have kids if we don't have sex. On top of that his sister moved into our two bedroom condo. It was suppose to be a couple months it's been a whole year! I'm lying here with my husband beside me and my sister i law down the hall and I'm thinking I'm 35 years old but feel and look like I'm 25 and I hate my life!!!!
How did I get here?!?!?!?!?!? There's so much more to write about how bad things are but I'm tired and I've never spilled my problems on an open forum before. This is so not me. But I can't talk to anyone about this because everyone in my life thinks my life is perfect. But it's not! I've actually been online for 3 hours trying to figure out how to end it all. The only thing stopping me is the thought of my Mother, Father, Brother, Sister, cousins, aunts and uncles and my Grandmother ( who's 98yrs old). If only I could just die and not hurt them. If only. I have to go the pain is to much. | |
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i am a 27yr old male. i think your husband is watching porn and/or seeing someone else
i think u should tell him that either of those r forms of cheating on you and tell him to stop.. if he doesn't admit to this then try to catch him in the act somehow and give him an ultimatum
note this is just my opinion so take it or leave it.. be wise in how u deal with it..
but i don't see how he doesn't want to have sex other than he is getting off elsewhere somewhere somehow
Go talk to a therapist. They can tell you what to do- you're certainly not lacking in self-esteem, that's for sure...
Cursed
And HOLY SHIT YOUR GRANDMA IS 98 YEARS OLD???? WTF
Then maybe you should follow, and make my day.
I'm sorry, but I think that - unless your husband is going through something very difficult right now - he probably has someone else. Hmmm, could it be that he got tired of living up to your perfect self? Talk about it, have a honest conversation with him.
And independently of what happens next, please focus on the good things you do have. All your family, you are only 35, your looks. I'm sure there are more qualities, you just didn't share them with the open forum. By the way do you notice that, when referring to yourself, you never mention anything character-wise but only look-wise..?
giiiiirrrllll please!! stop trying to be perfect and be a wife u idiot! if u seriously wanna die over that your fucked in the head!! ppl could only dream about having a life like yours!!
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